Leaving My Stable Job to Pursue My Dreams Full Time

For the past few years, I’ve been living a life that, from the outside, looks stable and secure. I transitioned from a customer service rep to a digital health coach, and while that may sound like a positive shift, there’s so much beneath the surface that wasn’t working for me. This was my first corporate job, where I actually got paid enough to pay my bills and have extra on the side. However, I felt myself falling back into depression and I refuse to go back.

One of the main reasons I decided to leave is that I felt taken advantage of. I brought multiple skills to the table — skills from customer service and health coaching —but when I earned my health coach certification, there wasn’t even a mention of a raise or recognition for that growth. It made me realize that no matter how much I developed, the company wasn’t valuing my contributions. That started a chain of realizations about what I was truly getting out of this job.

On top of that, I started to feel stagnant. I’d spend 8 hours a day glued to my computer, answering messages and taking calls. It became mind-numbing, and I began to dread how boring my work had become. I’m a creative person at heart —I thrive when I use my hands, my imagination, and my skills in a way that feels meaningful. But there I was, feeling stuck, my energy drained, my passion untapped.

I often wondered: What if I quit? What if I took all the time and energy I give to this job and invested it into my own passions? If I were to die tomorrow, would I even be happy with how I’m living? What needs to change? I’ve been longing to create art, dive into content creation, and explore so many other things I know I have the potential to do. But that potential was going unused because my job demanded so much of me. When I clocked out, I was too tired to work on my dreams. I just wanted to rest, spend time with my partner, or cook, without the pressure of filming it all for content.

Another layer to this decision is how isolating remote work can be. Sure, it’s convenient, but it started taking a toll on my mental health. I became less social, disconnected from the world, and felt lonely. I couldn’t concentrate, my eyes were constantly strained from staring at the screen, and I realized this job wasn’t just boring me —it was making me feel depressed.

On a personal level, the job even affected some of my closest relationships. I don’t want to go into too much detail, but working with a best friend complicated things, and that added strain only made me feel worse about staying.

I’ve been thinking about making this leap since 2018. That’s 6 years of hesitation, but I’m finally ready to stop letting fear hold me back. Time is money, and I’ve realized that if I keep putting all my energy into someone else’s dream, I’ll never have enough left over for my own. I’ve tried balancing both, working on content creation after my 9-to-6 job, but it always left me exhausted. Youtube is practically a full-time job in itself, and trying to juggle it all while being drained from work felt impossible.

So, I’m choosing to bet on myself. I believe that by investing my time and energy into what I truly love, I can finally live a life that aligns with my passions, creativity, and purpose. It’s scary to leave the comfort of a steady paycheck, but I’m more afraid of what will happen if I don’t make this jump.

There are so many things I want to do, and I owe it to myself to make them happen. It’s time to take back control of my life, my happiness, and my creativity. I knew I had to change something if I wanted to start seeing change in my life.

Here’s to new beginnings. ✨

Love,

Lala